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Thursday, June 17, 2004

Life's So Unpredictable

A friend of mine passed away in his sleep yesterday...

I first knew him while staying in the uni campus residential hall in our freshmen year and belonged to the same block where both our rooms were situated. His pad on the ground level and in the same wing as Mr. Gecko's, you can imagine my visits to his room being invented reasons to catch a glimpse of You-Know-Who. We were closer during our first year, he even had a hand in my union with Mr. Gecko - passing me bits of gossips and info who visited Mr. Gecko's room and he being seen with whom and so on.
I also remember he liked scaring me and revelled hearing me scream in fear. He really did give me some mock-scary moments which got me into hissing fits and which he was so amused with. I was taken up with his forever jovial moods. I wonder if he'd had forgotten those incidents.

We remain friends though I was not considered "one of his pack", he had other closer friends. But still, I had really liked his company and we never have awkward moments with each other. We kinda drifted to mere hi's and bye's with short words of exchanges or teases here and there. It was not just him. Most of my close friends whom I had bonded with in the hall too. It was totally my own doings. I chose to spend my time sticking to Mr. Gecko - thinking I could always salvage friendships. In other words, I was so not balancing my social life well.

I couldn't help berating now that despite working so near each other and I could easily walk to his workplace under 10 mins, I did not even bother making any effort these 2 years to meet up for an occasional lunch and chat. And a few days ago, just when I thought of calling him for lunch after two years of not having a proper meet-up, he's gone with no warning. Life's pretty ironic.
:(

I'm taking this as a personal life lesson. I hope I never will take anyone or anything for granted no more and I hope to appreciate much more on my life's offerings. I know all these sound so cliché at this time and that time heals grief, but I have to try; at least .

To you, for you Damien...

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