Someone Teach Me How To Be Thick-Skinned Please

I am not a particularly shy girl. In fact, in some aspects taken from real life situations, I think I am quite courageous and my occassional devil-may-care attitude surprised myself too. Once, I pulled a man away with one strong swing when he tried to cut the queue right in front of me. I had asked a muscle-man to give up his seat in an overcrowded bus to an old woman carrying a baby by jabbing at his overgrown biceps. Freakingly hilarious now that I think about the situations I put myself in sometimes. Anyway, the point being I do know an acquiescent personality is definitely so not me.

I thought I am SO courageous, nothing can beat my spirits down for anything. When I first started being the little boss, I also thought I'd be thick-skinned enough and would encounter no problem promoting my own business to all my business contacts. Layman terms - salesgirl.

Boy... am I prideful and boastful. How mininal I know thyself! Simply put, I am just not thick-skinned enough. Not enough. I tried calling some of my closest business contacts to let known my private venture and I found myself beating round the bush! Umm... Umm... In the end, some of my contacts thought I was just paying them a courtesy call!!

Seriously, this is not easy when I have almost zero portfolio to speak of. My unswallowable gob of pride comes in the way when I mind how others will judge me. I will need major tweakings to that unnecessary pride of mine, taking into heart not to rush the notions of success too soon in my brains.

All that said, I still like being my own boss. I am A little boss sounds good to my ears. Nothing is as satisfying as clinching a deal and making good out of it. Maybe except the day when Mr. Gecko slip a rock on my finger. But that's a different story altogether yeah?