Help! I Am Morphing Into One Corporate Bitch Too!

*Arrrgghhh...*

*Gggrrrrr...!!!*

*!@#$%^&*

One thousand and one cussings are swirling~~ in my mind. With my head buried at the couch of my arms in a foetus-like position sitting on the office's chair, the air seemed danker by the seconds and am finding it increasingly a chore just, to breathe.

I looked up, I fisted, I swung and hit non-existently.

Another time.

Another time.

Another time.

I AM EXTREMELY FIRED UP! I FEEL LIKE LINING UP THE NEMESES AND GIVE THEM ALL A PIECE OF MY FREAKING UP MADLY MIND. AND THEY WILL KNOW NEVER TO MESS WITH ME FROM NOW!

I have been feeling under the weather for some weeks and today, I am like one China dam unleashing its potentially powerful torrents within.

The publication production is horribly behind schedule (there weren't any proper plannings in the first place) and it's all dued to one egomaniacal freaky... I can wring his neck right now, if Hong Kong is within my arm's reach. With everybody all flustered up and bosses with nary a care except to expect you to meet the targetted - still, it's no wonder I am turning into a harridan - my nightmare personality.

Besides being pissed off, I feel bad too - for not treating my other staff with much needed professional composure. While understanding all others are just as burdened as me, I failed take control of the situation. I was shouting at one of my colleague on the phone and though my parting words were "... we are a team and you have to trust me!" I'd have doubts myself to trust a person from that tone of voice.

I will mend the situation. Later... when I calm down.

Breathe.